Monday, 1 March 2010

Just a little thing to worry about when taking responsibility

This is just a little more about my inner workings, to tempt anyone who may be reading to wait and see what all the fuss is about!

I know that there are many people who do not suffer from the trials and tribulations of occasional and repeated acute anxiety but mine seems to have increased of late for there is good reason. I didn't take action a few weeks ago and now I have paid in more ways than one but at least today's actions may have protected me from increased apprehension, worry, stress, tension and angst.

So do I doubt myself? Yes I do and it manifests itself in nail-biting indecision, panic and scary feelings all arising from my lack of confidence. However, I know that fear and trepidation are just part of the pressures that arrive when there are problems to solve. I tell myself it is normal to be vexatious when there is a heavy burden of responsibility. At my age I think it is borne out of excess baggage.
There is a lovely children's story called THE HUGE BAG OF WORRIES by Virginia Ironside, where all the little girl's worries follow her in the big blue bag until one day the monsters are released. ( I think ) Must find it to read it again as my self help therapy!! It's rather like the "put the worries in a box, tie it with a red ribbon and put it on a shelf" theory. Fine in theory, but action is still required!

I am learning that a cure for the anxiety IS FUNNILY ENOUGH to make a decision!!!!! Ha, I hear myself say, therein is the root of my anxieties. They occur because I have been unable to make a decision. So, is it? or it is a bit like the chicken and the egg conundrum!

I am trying to learn (at my age!) about worldly human emotional experiences and I am wondering what advice would I give my grand daughter if she were to be in such a dilemma. What would I have said to my class of children at school?
Hmm.... more concrete thinking is required! I have not been a philosopher!

How to induce calm, reassurance, composure, peace and tranquility? That's the next thing to worry about!

I have friends and techniques to help myself but it doesn't stop it from happening.

What's tomorrow's worry?


Carolyn said...

I can't remember the details, but an American humorist named Patrick McManus wrote a short story about his worry box. It was full, and he would work on clearing out his worry box, but when he'd solved one problem, something new to worry about came up, and his worry box was full again. He could never clear it out. I guess that's life for adults.

Another way to think about worry is that it is actually a form of planning. Worry can be useful!

What do you think?

Sweetpea in France said...

Worry is not useful ... it wastes my time and energies and increases the worrylines! The only way to get rid of worries is to not sleep horizontally or at all and to be totally occupied with something totally alien from the worry. Laughter is the better policy but when one is worried it's hard to create the laughter lines!
Maybe it's something that gets worse as we get older?